Grr~ Im falling sick. I cried in school today, i dont know why but so many thoughts just came rushing to me and i couldnt control my tears. Hais. I told marcus i`ll call him on the 26th, to get an answer from him. An answer of whether he is happier without me, an answer of whether he still loves me. If its a no den i guess im gonna give up alrdy. I mean its not that i dont love him or my feelings are fading, its just that i dun wanna be the only one clinging on to a dying r/s. Even if his answer is gonna disappoint me, theres nothing i can do right? I might just wait silently at the side and wait till he has had enough fun or wait till he realises im the girl tht loves him the most. It might not take sucha short time before he realises and i guess he might only realise it after he has gotten another girl. Tsk. Being single sucks ! ;x. I`ve got no life and even if i haf the money, i`ve got nowhere to spend on. Zzz

I really hope i wont be disappointed on monday but i guess its very super likely that imma get disappointed. Hais.. I really wonder what haf possessed my beloved boy ! The boy who says that he needs me alot and loves me alot.. Hais.. Crap ! I guess if i get disappointed on monday, if i ever fall into another r/s, it`ll never be about LOVE anymore. Hais.. Marcus boy~ I really miss and love you so. When will you ever realise it? ;x

And i end school at 1PM tml, friday and monday. Yayness to the maximum ! But still, sammie is not happy =( Sayos!